Day 2


Again, I seem to be a loss for words. I must be rusty at this whole writing thing. It’s been a very emotional day for me. I’d rather not go into the details. Again, I’m not interested in hurting anyone. Right now my thoughts and words are very hurting. I am hurting and just want to hurt back. Badly. I hope I’m not so untrustworthy.

In other news, we have a raccoon living in our ceiling. It’s made it’s home or nest or whatever right over our bathroom. It makes me feel weird to go in there and shower. We have a call into an exterminator. And it’s a specialist too, because the regular exterminator won’t deal with big things. Not that the raccoon is “big” like a bear or what not. But yeah. And I guess the specialist is swamped because we have been playing phone tag for days. The dog just stares at the ceiling sometimes. The raccoon scratches an itch and we hear it. It snores during the day.

I sent Professor on the school bus this morning with no shoes on his feet. I was far from the bus, sitting in my car still in my pjs and a robe, and I heard the bus driver clearly ask him where his shoes were. This is a problem if you just play all morning and don’t get dressed till you are in the car.


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525 Days


It’s been 525 days since I’ve last written. It seems like a lifetime. I’m not sure why I stopped writing. I think real life just got too hard to try to document everything. Anything. In Nov of 2013, we were preparing to move, without knowing where we were going. I just couldn’t bring myself to talk about what we were doing. Because honestly, what we were doing was panicking about where we were going and what we were doing. We were facing unemployment on Dec 31st. Juice had several interviews. Everything just stopped.

And then, everything hurtled forward. A job opened up in Colorado. Juice accepted. We moved within 2 weeks of the company telling us about it. We lived for 2 months in a hotel. We lived in Utah with my parents for months so I could put the kids in school. Juice stayed in Colorado. We sold our Maryland house. We FINALLY bought a house in Colorado. Our stuff came. We settled in.

That’s the bare bones answer to what we have been doing for the past 525 days. There is so much more to it than that. I can’t seem to bring myself to write about the move. About how much harder it was on me than I ever thought. About how I can’t think about Maryland without crying. How much I miss my friends.

I also have a hard time talking about Colorado. Oh sure, the state is nice. Juice loves his job. The kids’ school is just fine. They seem to be doing very well here. But I feel like I’m drowning. Everyone has been nice to me. It’s nice here. I’m not sure what else to say. I’m afraid to put it all out there. I don’t want to damage any newly formed buds of friendship I might have. Of course, I doubt any one of those people even read this blog. I doubt any one reads it. Ever. But they might. I just don’t want to say. Maybe as I start blogging more often, I might find myself in a place to say these things. But until I do, this will have to be enough.


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Pumpkin Patch


I won a Facebook contest for 4 tickets to the local pumpkin patch. We had a great time! Cowboy was free so we only had to pay for 1 ticket. It was worth it! We went a hay ride, through the corn maze, jumped in the hay loft, saw some animals, slid down the giant slides, saw the pumpkin patch, and generally enjoyed ourselves. See for yourself!














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Engineer Plus Baby


Awhile ago I went out somewhere and came home to this:


Not sure what was going on here…but this is what you get when you leave an engineer home alone with a baby. (Note, the baby was perfectly happy until he saw me, then was crying.)


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First day of School 2013


I know I’m several months late posting this, but I thought I should at least put up pictures of the kids’ first day of school!


Butterfly is now in 3rd grade! Her teacher is awesome and fun and firm and I really like her.


She was most excited to learn multiplication and division in math and see what new books her teacher had in her classroom to read.



Pirate has been very on the fence about school but was super excited to ride the bus! Full day Kindergarten is a big step. He talks often about the kids at his table and his friends at recess, but not a whole lot about anything else.



Professor has been begging to go to school for awhile. He jumped in 2 feet first and has thrived ever since. I think he has a serious crush on his teacher because I only ever hear about what she likes to do or what her favorite color is.



I put them in the same class this year, and not at their teacher’s recommendation. I pulled the parent string and I was right. She was very nervous to have them in class together because she felt like they would rely too much on each other. I asked her to put them on different ends of the room. Now they tell me they rarely play with each other. And they are not doing each others work at home or whatever it is that experts said they should split twins up for. I like having them in the same class and having one teacher to deal with. Now I might need to split them later on the schooling process, but it’s working so far.


I made them stop and pose for this picture with our bus. They weren’t late but they were the last ones on the bus and had to run up the hill!


Some pre school sillies:


And no first day of school would be complete without our trip out for ice cream!


So far, the school year has been awesome!


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Pre Moving Preperations


It’s no secret that we will be moving in the near future. How near? Not sure yet. But I imagine it is right around the new year. At least, that’s my projection of the moving timeline. If all goes well job wise. I hope it goes well job wise.

So. With a move in the future, I’ve started to clean stuff out of our house/attic/storage unit. It started with a major purge of everything baby in October. I had 8 30 gallon tubs FULL of baby clothes. And kid clothes. There were so many clothes.

And I found more! Where is it all coming from?!

With the help of my lovely friends, we sorted, hung, snapped and tagged over 500 items for the semi annual twin sale. Almost all of my stuff sold. That’s good because we were living like this for awhile:

1 week from the sale. Then MAYBE my family can sit down.

Honestly it felt good to purge.

So slowly I’ve been going through other parts of the house and purging there too. I went through my closet and honestly asked what things I was wearing. Then I got rid of everything that I wasn’t. I packed up all my clothes from when I was skinny. Still so not skinny from having Cowboy. One day I hope to fit into those clothes again!

I went through the pantry and donated everything I knew we wouldn’t eat from now until Christmas. I’m thinking that I need to go through and get rid of everything else that I know we couldn’t move with us. I’m hesitant to start packing up the kitchen, but I’m itching to as well. The thing is that I’m not going to take half of the kitchen with us. I’m only taking the pans I like the best. The ones I use the most. The mixing bowls that work fine but I don’t like? Not coming along. The set of dishes that we got for a wedding present that used to have 8 of everything but are down to 3 bowls and 6 plates? Not coming with us. The mix match of glasses? Not coming with us. The kids plates? Coming!

I’ve also started narrowing down the furniture that we are bringing. The kids’ beds, check. The boys brand new dressers, check. Butterfly’s dresser I bought her before she was born? Not coming with us! That thing has broken so many times and has a ton of fixes by Juice in it. But I just don’t want to bring it along. I will get her a new one when we get to our new place.

Our bed? The mattress and box spring comes, the frame stays here. The tall dresser with the broken drawers from moving across the country 10 years ago? Staying here! Our long dresser? Hmm…maybe. I think it should come along because we probably won’t have scads of money to buy a new one right away. But it will be replaced eventually. Hopefully it will survive another move.

Our couch? Not staying here but not coming with either! It’s going to a new home. We will buy a new couch when we get there. All of our computer desks, chairs, etc, staying here. Our kitchen table? Coming along.

I’m hopeful that by leaving half of our furniture behind that the expense will be lessened, at least on this end. My concern is that the company won’t move us so we would have to foot the bill. So I’m trying to make it the least amount possible. Now if the company moves us…that’s a different story.

One thing that we are trying to do is get rid of our storage unit. We’ve been moving boxes back to the house and going through them. I’ve been trying to get everything down by a third. Meaning I throw at least a third of the stuff in the boxes away or give away or earmark to sell. Our attic is filling up. I’d say in about 2 weeks we can start selling the furniture that we have in there.

It will be nice to buy new things. And to hang pictures up in a new place. And to make the new house feel like home. I hope we know more soon!


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Sickness, part 2


What’s worse than a horrible fall cold that leaves everyone coughing? The flu! Only this time instead of sitting up all night with a non breathing baby, I was up all night puking my guts out. I HATE stomach issues. It’s turning out to be more of a 24 hour thing, but still, yucky!

There was one point in the night where I was just so stinking cold I had Juice get me all the blankets he could find and then even my robe and my coat. I couldn’t stop shivering.

No one else seems to have a problem. Maybe it was something I ate? I’m not sure, but I’m going to bed!


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Sickness in the House


Seems like every year about this time I have a post all about how sick we all are. This year is no exception.

Everyone is sick! Okay, not everyone. Me and Professor seem to have dodged this cold. But Professor always seems to dodge colds. There is so much coughing all the time I’m surprised we have though. Even the baby is sick which makes me feel sad. Poor kiddo. He is having such a hard time breathing and coughing and sleeping is starting to become out of the question.

I can only imagine it will get worse.

There have been several times this week where I have sat in the bathroom with the baby in the darkness of night with the shower on trying to steam the air enough so that he will stop his dry raspy cough. No, I don’t think it’s doctor trip time. Personally, unless he’s screaming and pulling at his ears, I won’t take him in at all. He hasn’t had a fever, just this horrible cough and general stuffiness.

Pirate has it the worst I think. He just coughs and coughs and coughs. I hear him through the wall at night coughing and I think I should bring him into the bathroom steam session too. But frankly, I’m so incredibly tired that I don’t think straight at 3:45 in the morning.

Colds last 10-14 days, right? So right around Thanksgiving, we should be all better! Hopefully!


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Cowboy is 10 months old!


Holy cow, my baby is 10 months old! He is SUCH a fun lovely little baby. He absolutely loves people and hates to be alone. He always has a huge smile for the kids as they get off the bus from school, and really loves to see everyone in the morning. He is the happiest when we are all together.

I’ve really enjoyed seeing him discover a lot of things this month. He really started noticing Soot (the dog) this month and crawls off towards her all the time. Yes he crawls! He still has the army crawl because I think it’s easier to do on our wood floors than crawl on all fours. He holds his right foot up in the air as he pulls himself around the house. On the carpet, he’s starting to really creep around in a halting all fours crawl. He falls on his face a lot and gets a lot of bruises on his forehead.

He has also started pulling up on everything but no cruising around the furniture yet. One thing he does that I find adorable is he crawls through the kitchen chairs like it’s a jungle gym. He is amazingly strong rolling over while you are trying to change his diaper. It’s actually very annoying and hard to pin him down to change him! He’s the one child that I wish I had a changing table to use. Or maybe I don’t?

He does a lot of talking through the day. He says “huh!” and “da!” and “ada da da”. He also has the cutest little wheeze that he does when he is extra happy to see someone. I get that wheeze a lot. Makes me feel good!

He has been the easiest kid to keep away from the dog food. When you say, “No no baby!” he actually turns around and stops what he’s doing. He loves to shred paper which the kids have found out. Not happily, I might add.

The other day, I was holding him and he grinned up at me and put his foot in my hand. Just for fun, I tickled it. He giggled and squirmed away. Then he looked up at me again and slowly put his foot back in my hand. It got tickled and he giggled and squirmed away. We must have spent about 10 minutes doing that because he was having so much fun!

He is also a major flirt and will smile at anyone. He then ducks his head into me and shyly looks up at you with his big blue eyes. It melts everyone’s heart every single time. But heaven forbid if you should take him from his mommy! He is a serious mama’s boy and has to be with me most of the time. He’s just fine as long as he knows I’m there.

He is a TERRIBLE sleeper. Oh sure, he naps great if I hold him and don’t move. But during the day if I put him down, he’s up in less than 2 minutes and he screams and screams and screams. I seriously am at my wits end with him. I’ve never had a kid that sleeps so badly. And since he sleeps bad during the day, I can’t get anything else done. Well, I feel like I don’t get things done. He does nap in the car but doesn’t transfer well. Ugh, it makes me frustrated just to even type it out. On the other hand, he is an awesome night sleeper and goes to bed around 6:30 and wakes up around 7am. He wakes up maybe once to eat either at 11pm or 5am, and then goes right back down.

Cowboy eats just about anything. Anything I’m eating, he thinks he should eat. Anything anyone else is eating, he thinks he should have. Strangers included. He will start by being all cute and shy, then start opening his mouth when they eat and crying when the bite goes into their mouths and not his. He loves his food. He’s had so many things, I don’t even keep track anymore. All kinds of veggies, noodles, bread, fruit, meats…am I missing anything? Seriously, the boy can eat.

I’m loving having a little buddy to hang around with all the time. He’s just so fun!


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Moving Thoughts


When Juice started to look for a new job (about a year and a half ago?) I started researching out houses. When he had interviews, I researched out the area and the schools. And even sometimes when he told me about jobs he was most interested in, even if they never made it to the interview part.

I’ve looked at a lot of houses. Online, of course.

Juice is waiting on jobs in 3 different areas this time around. I’ve taken a few weeks and focused on each area to find a few houses I wouldn’t mind renting, and to get the lay of the land. Then I sit and imagine myself in these houses and how our lives might go. Does anyone else do this?

What types of things do I imagine? Well, I think of how wonderful it would feel to curl up next to that fire place with the snow falling, hot cocoa in hand, and our Christmas tree twinkling right over there. What kind of couch am I going to get that would fit that room? I like big sectional couches, but would something smaller work out?

Which bedroom is bigger? Which bedroom is laid out better so I can put all 3 boys into one room? How about the house with the awesome tub? Or the one that is next to a park? What about that house that’s WAAAAAY out in the country. Could we handle that? Could Juice handle that commute?

Where will Cowboy learn to walk? Where will he say his first word? If we move there, how easy is it to have visitors? If we move here, will we have any visitors at all?

My dream house right now has 4 bedrooms, 2.5 baths, a working fireplace in a nice big open family room with a big back yard for the kids to play in. Oh and awesome schools in a good neighborhood.

I guess my biggest concern with the housing thing is that I doubt we will get any of that. We will probably end up renting a tiny house with tiny rooms and no fireplace, no back yard. But we will have an AWESOME school. I hope!


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